How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #7
"What does that mean?" I say, getting pissed off. "Did you have parents? A dog? A parakeet? A Social Security number? Can you remember? How do you feel? Is there a God? What happens when we die? Will I be like you, spray-painting my wings with misspelled messages and guiding people on stupid, insane missions? (22.26)
We're with Cameron on this one: Sometimes Dulcie's vague answers can be pretty irritating. Would she just give it to him straight, for once? Geez. It's kind of unfair that she won't give Cam any answers about the afterlife. But then again, she's a manifestation of his conscience… so since Cam doesn't know what happens, it doesn't seem possible for Dulcie to either.
Quote #8
Do I ever think about [dying]? What does he want to hear? That lately I think about how my mom's face looks when she's drinking her coffee in the morning, staring at her crossword puzzle like she just might beat it today. I think about driving with my dad to the lake the day before he and Mom bought the new house when I was eleven, him singing along to the radio and looking like all he wanted to do was keep driving and singing. I think about the Jenna who made me a Christmas ornament out of macaroni when she was six, and the current Jenna, Jenna of the dance team, Jenna who can't stand me, Jenna who will miss me when I'm gone, even if it's just because I'm not there to make her look so much better to the world. I think about the fact that I will probably never bone Staci Johnson and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. I think about dying every day, because I can't stop thinking about the living. (27.53)
Gonzo kind of sticks his foot in his mouth when he asks Cam if he ever thinks about dying. In short, uh, yeah, dude…
Quote #9
Maybe if I had more time, I could've shrugged it off and said, hey, pal, better lay next time. But this was pretty much my one shot, and I blew it. It's not just the sex, though. It's the whole damn unfairness of it all. Like I'm just starting to understand how amazing this whole crazy ride is going to be and now it's coming to an end. (43.100)
As he's getting closer to the end, Cameron is starting to realize everything he's missed out on by being such a grumpy misanthrope. Isn't that just typical, though? Why couldn't he have learned all these life lessons without having to die at the end? Or is it the fact that he's dying that he makes him able to see all that life can offer?