How we cite our quotes: (Part.Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #4
I want to throw my miserable, complaining, excuse-making mouth from my face and get on with it. I even corner myself in the widening light of the lounge room. I think, Don't blame it anymore, Ed. Take it. I even move out onto the front porch and see my own limited view of the world. I want to take that world, and for the first time ever, I feel like I can do it. I've survived everything I've had to so far. I'm still standing here. (2.6.6)
Here Ed realizes he's got nerve in his own way, surviving what he has. There are different types of courage, and Ed might not be out-and-proud brave like other guys, but he knows how to muddle through, and that's got to count for something.
Quote #5
"Yes, Marv." I make the answer very clear. "I'm playing." I'm suddenly very in the mood for this year's game. Despite being a physical disaster, I feel stronger than ever, and I'm actually relishing the idea of being hurt some more. Don't ask me why. I don't understand it myself. (3.A.37)
Before the Annual Sledge Game, Ed preps mentally for what's about to come. He's more focused on feeling pain than giving it, but he goes to the game anyway. Yep, we think that's crazy too, but in a weird way Ed is being courageous by facing his fears at the game.
Quote #6
My only worry is that every time I've wanted something to go a certain way in all of this, it's gone the other, designed perfectly to challenge me with the unknown. I want Keith and Daryl to come walking through the door again. I want them to deliver the next card and criticize the Doorman for his smell and for having fleas. I've even left the door unlocked so they can enter my house in a civilized manner. (3.A.22)
Let's face it: Ed's got a weird relationship with Keith and Daryl. They're hit men, and he's afraid of them, but there's also a part of him that wants them in his life. Perhaps that's because he gets to feel empowered somehow after they've left him with another task to complete, or maybe because he likes the challenge. Either way, it's clear that Ed has moved beyond his initial reaction of fear with them.