Sit down, take a deep breath: this poem's intense. An unnamed speaker ruminates about the abortions she's had. She thinks about the children and adults that her pregnancies could have grown up to be. She addresses the aborted fetuses directly, and tells them that she was not "deliberate" in her decision to have an abortion. She contemplates the idea of abortion itself, and asks if it's possible to kill something that was never alive. She ends the poem by announcing that she "loved [them] all."