How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Page)
Quote #10
I lay in my mother's bed all night fighting evil thoughts: It is your fault that she killed herself in the first place. Your face took her back again. You should have stayed with her. If you were here, she would not have gotten pregnant. (35.227)
Sophie cannot stop from blaming herself about her mother's violent suicide. Her identification with her mother's suffering has not ended just because Martine is now gone. In fact, she feels as though she should have been the barrier between her mother and the demons that plagued her from the time before Sophie was even born. These are irrational thoughts, but they are understandable—especially since Martine had told Sophie that she had saved her life throughout the years.