How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #4
i could remind her that not all guys are dickheads like my dad, but she perversely hates it when i say bad things about him. she's probably just worried about the day i'll wake up and realize half my genes are so geared toward being a bastard that i'll wish i was a bastard. well, mom, guess what—that day came a long time ago. and i wish i could say that's where the pills come in, but the pills only deal with the side effects.
god bless the mood equalizers. and all moods shall be created equal. i am the f***ing civil rights movement of moods. (4.52-53)
will has some pretty rough mood swings. Does he think he's a horrible person? Kind of. And his medicine can only do so much to combat that. The rest has to come from will.
Quote #5
here's the sick, twisted thing: part of me thinks i deserve this. that maybe if i wasn't such an asshole, isaac would have been real. if i wasn't such a lame excuse for a person, something right might happen to me. it's not fair, because i didn't ask for dad to leave, and i didn't ask to be depressed, and i didn't ask for us to have no money, and i didn't ask to want to f*** boys, and i didn't ask to be so stupid , and i didn't ask to have no real friends, and i didn't ask to have half the s*** that comes out of my mouth come out of my mouth. all i wanted was one f***ing break, one idiotic good thing, and that was clearly too much to ask for, too much to want. (10.62)
This is super sad, but will's also right—being depressed is one of many things he can't control. Why can't one thing go his way, especially when he has so much to deal with otherwise?
Quote #6
mom: why don't you go sit next to tiny, and i'll get you a coke?
i took my pills this morning, i swear. but it's like they ended up in my leg instead of my brain, because i just can't get happy. i sit down on the couch, and as soon as mom is out of the room, tiny's hand is on my hand, fingers rubbing over my fingers.
tiny: it's okay, will. i love being here. (14.35-37)
It's not just the pills that are failing will; things are a bit strained with Tiny and will knows it. He just doesn't want to face it. No pill can turn a bad relationship good.