How we cite our quotes: (Book.Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #4
"I think what men fear is the unknown. They fear pain and death, because these may be waiting round any corner. But there are times when I know what is hidden, and waiting, or when—I told you—I see it lying straight in the pathway. And I know where pain and danger lie for me, and I know that death is not yet to come; so I am not afraid. This isn't courage." (II.10.45).
Merlin reveals the source of his confidence: he knows that he's not going to die anytime soon. His reflections on the nature of fear show him to be a perceptive and humble guy. It's not a matter of courage, he tells Belasius. Merlin knows that he's been born for a purpose, and that purpose has not yet been fulfilled. No need to fear—yet.
Quote #5
"It frightens me, too. You're right, that's how it feels, as if I were an empty shell with something working through me. I say things, I see things, think things, till that moment I never knew of. But you're wrong in thinking I don't feel. It hurts me. I think this may be because I can't command whatever speaks through me…" (II.11.71)
Merlin tries to explain to Cadal how it feels to have a vision or some other communication with "the god." It's not pretty. Merlin makes it clear that he's never in control in these situations and that his individuality is also somehow taken away from him.
He may not fear death or torture, but this experience does terrify him. Also, this is the first hint we get that Merlin feels pain whenever he's possessed by "the god." He'll have more experience with this later, when he makes his prophecy for Vortigern.
Quote #6
But the power had gone and there was no help here from the god; I did not even know if I was man enough for what might happen after she told them. I dared not speak again; I was afraid that if they used force against me she would speak to save me. And once they knew, once they started to question me… (III.7.41)
Merlin finds himself in a miserable situation before Vortigern. His mother is being forced to reveal the identity of Merlin's father, and he can do nothing to flip the tables in their favor. If Niniane tells the truth, Ambrosius' life and ambitions for Britain will be in danger. If she refuses, they'll both die.
At seventeen, Merlin's already supposed to be a pretty big deal. He's smart and tall. He's a prince. He's got a personal in with "the god." But even with all these advantages, he can't escape the sword sticking in his side and Vortigern's kingly power. Panic rightly sets in.