How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #10
Gran died in her sleep last night. I tried to tell myself that she's gone to Gramps, but I'm so depressed all I can think about is worms eating her body. Empty eye sockets with whole colonies of writhing maggots. (225.1)
These delusions might be lingering after-effects of all her drug use. The fact that her fears all take on a very visual aspect suggests that perhaps Alice is suffering from flashbacks, which is pretty unfortunate.
Quote #11
The worst thing about today was seeing soft, frail Gran lowered into that dark, endless hole. It seemed to swallow her up and when they threw dirt on the coffin, I thought I was going to scream. But Joel said not to think about that because that isn't what death really means and I guess he's right. I just can't think about it. (227.3)
Joel obviously has a pretty good head on his shoulders. He had to deal with the death of his father at an early age, so he's light years ahead of Alice in terms of having a mature response to death and dying. That being said, watching someone you love being buried can be devastating no matter who you are.