How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #7
Then I smelled it. I almost stopped talking in the middle of a sentence, the smell was so strong. Chris was over on the other side of the room but I saw her looking around and knew she had smelled it too. The air seemed to be getting thick and parts of my head were begging for it. I didn't know whether to run or stay or what. Then I turned around and one of the men passed me a joint and that was it. I wanted to be ripped, smashed, torn up as I had never wanted anything before. (101.5)
Alice's willpower is not one of her strong points. In fact, it just may be the thing she's worst at—but for all her self-berating, she never seems to identify this true problem.
Quote #8
The garbage that goes with drugs makes the price too goddamned high for anyone to pay. (104.2)
And yet, she keeps payin' it…
Quote #9
All the dumb, idiot kids who think they are only chipping are in reality just existing from one experience to the other. After you've had it, there isn't even life without drugs. It's a prodding, colorless, dissonant bare existence. It stinks. And I'm glad I'm back. Glad! Glad! Glad! (138.2)
When she's currently doing drugs, they are just the best things ever. When she's clean and sober they're a never-ending Nickelback concert. But at least here she is showing some awareness of the cycle of addicti-…. Nope. We got too hopeful. She's just back on the bandwagon and loving it.