How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #4
For two days now I've tried to convince myself that using LSD makes me a "dope addict" and all the other low-class, unclean, despicable things I've heard about kids that use LSD and all the other drugs […]. All the things I've heard about LSD were obviously written by uninformed, ignorant people like my parents who obviously don't know what they're talking about; maybe pot is the same. (46.2)
Alice is totally trying to justify her drug use to herself. She knows it's not a great thing to get into, and yet she's trying to convince herself that everyone who told her drugs are bad are full of bologna.
Quote #5
I don't know why I shouldn't use drugs, because they're wild and they're beautiful and they're wonderful, but I know I shouldn't, and I won't! I won't ever again. I hereby solemnly promise that I will from this very day forward live so that everyone I know can be proud of me and so that I can be proud of myself! (49.4)
Yeah, nice try Alice. If they're so beautiful and wonderful and wild, do you really think you'll never do them again? It sounds like a bunch of empty promises to us, but you keep doing you, girlfriend.
Quote #6
Chris and I are thinking about quitting our jobs because it's getting so that we don't have any time for what we want to do. I'm deeply in love with Richie, and Chris is in love with Ted, and we want to spend as much time with them as we can. The b**** is that none of us ever seem to have enough money, so Chris and I have both had to push a little pot. Of course we only sell to the kids who are heavy users and who would just buy it from someone else if they didn't get it from us. (76.1)
This is where Alice starts to really get delusional. She has to justify so much of her own behavior to herself, you'd think her subconscious would be raising some red flags—but alas, she lacks the self-awareness to see how wrong she is. The whole "we're only selling drugs to heavy users" and "they'd get it from somewhere else if not me" is classic self-deception.